Attic the wrong box
I don't think I've ever really told anyone before, but over the last couple of years I've had exactly the same dream four or five times.

I don't know how it starts, but the climax is me stood at the bottom of a short staircase leading up to (what seems to be) an attic room. Ten or so wooden stairs, no carpet and no landing, just the closed panelled wooden door at the top.

The worst of it is that there are no words to express how terrified I am of climbing those stairs and going in that room. Something is in there - I have no idea what it is but the thought of coming face to face with it reduces me to a quivering jelly. Almost literally, too - I have to climb the stairs but of course, just as I'm about to open the door I wake up with a jolt, and in a real state of panic.

I know it sounds as if I'm exaggerating but the fear I feel when I wake up is beyond anything I have ever experienced in my life. I don't scream but for a couple of seconds am totally disoriented and, as I said, in a state of complete and utter terror. It takes a while to subside, too - the idea of going back to sleep and having to go through it again (unlikely, I know) is unbearable.

Several things bother me about this dream (quite apart from its extreme unpleasantness). One is the fact that it's repetitive, although not frequent. If it happened often, I'd talk to a doctor, but I don't feel that's an option yet. Why should the dream always be the same, though?

Another is wondering just what it is that's behind the door. It's obviously something that I'm deeply afraid of, but I have no idea what it could be. As far as I'm aware, I don't have any real fears or phobias. What's triggering this in me? I don't believe in ghosts, or evil spirits, but the closest description I could find for what's behind the door is total and utter malevolence and it fucking terrifies me.

Even thinking about having the dream makes me a bit shaky, somewhere inside. The thought of opening that door and coming face to face with whatever's inside is beyond any tolerance I'm capable of.

That's it, really. I feel slightly better having committed all this to paper (you know what I mean) and finally got it out of my system. No answers, though.
(zebideedoodah likes florence but prefers venice, Thu 18 Sep 2014, 3:56, 7 replies)

the abject

(dozers, do fuck off ur a nob m8, Thu 18 Sep 2014, 6:47, closed)

according to this Jungian dream analysis book
you're a complete fucking nancy
( Dr. Shambolic je suis charlie, Thu 18 Sep 2014, 8:19, closed)

Behind the door,
is either Jimmy Savile or Scottish Independence.
(eViLegion Chief Commissioner of the Scottish Lunacy Board, Thu 18 Sep 2014, 9:56, closed)

Night terrors indicate...
..that you've committed a terrible crime and then blocked it out. You sick bastard!
(csdaveuk, Thu 18 Sep 2014, 10:02, closed)

Having watched the Sopranos & Hannibal boxsets
I can say with 100% surety that this is about you wanting to fuck your mum.
Or it's about ducks.
( Dervel OTBC, Thu 18 Sep 2014, 12:48, closed)

Sounds like a suppressed memory trying to get out...

(moon monkey is busy making memories worth repressing, Thu 18 Sep 2014, 13:56, closed)

You're a replicant.
A Blade Runner will be along shortly to 'retire' you. PLease stay where you are and remain calm.
( stuj (^(^;;^)^) GO TEAM SPIDERS!(^(^;;^)^), Thu 18 Sep 2014, 16:31, closed)