I am here, I like blondes
Their hair is like a blank canvas.
( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:40, 1 reply, 15 years ago)

What choo been doing this evening then?

( SteveFrench Cardio is for homo's. do you even lift bro?, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:41, Reply)

Drinking cider
Dwelling on things I shouldn't be and talking to close friends about my current state of mind and the worry that I may be slipping back into depression
( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:44, Reply)

Anything you want to share?

( JeffTheDogFucker Can you dig it?, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:45, Reply)

Not so much, those I tend to share my thoughts and feelings with already know
They just think I'm a fucking idiot
( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:52, Reply)

Well MTFU then!*
*stock answer is stock answer.
( JeffTheDogFucker Can you dig it?, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:53, Reply)

I may have acted like an idiot but it doesn't mean I deserved any of it :'(

( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:57, Reply)

sounds like a plan stan. B3ta is probably the best place for depression there are enough mentals
here to keep your mind off it. What Cider?
( SteveFrench Cardio is for homo's. do you even lift bro?, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:45, Reply)

Kopparberg, Bulmers Pear, St Helier, Jaques and now asda extra special

( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:50, Reply)

I've had a fair bit :D

( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:51, Reply)

a connoisseur (spelling?)
good lad, hope you are feeling a bit better chum! tis the season to be jolly etc. Plus you get to talk to us and we're all ace*

*excludes Chompy. He is witty and charming apparently definitely not ace.
( SteveFrench Cardio is for homo's. do you even lift bro?, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:52, Reply)

I feel numb, not better

( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:54, Reply)

Welcome to my world!

( JeffTheDogFucker Can you dig it?, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:56, Reply)

I find taking pleasure in the little things helps massively to cheering me up. Just stupid things
like how recently loads of ladybirds have been turning up in my room in this weather! and how I've rearranged my films into fear order. So the first one is wall.e and the last one is rec.
( SteveFrench Cardio is for homo's. do you even lift bro?, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:59, Reply)

I do take pleasure in many things
At the moment I feel emotionally trapped, if I leave I'll be spending Christmas alone, if I stay I'm being treated like a servant, there's not even any benefits to this friendship any more...
( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:06, Reply)

So the magnitude of christmas day and the social expectations that come with it is the trigger
for this then? so it's be alone on one day or spend a day with someone you don't like. Option one for me. At least you know where you stand and can start dealing with it?
( SteveFrench Cardio is for homo's. do you even lift bro?, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:08, Reply)

The problem isn't that I don't like them, I still love them, deeply, more so than I can describe

( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:09, Reply)

I feel the same way about McDonalds Chicken Nuggets.
But I know they are bad for me and must be banished. Cous Cous may be boring but it's better for me.
( SteveFrench Cardio is for homo's. do you even lift bro?, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:12, Reply)

I could use some of those right about now

( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:16, Reply)

sauce of choice?
now get this right max!!!
( SteveFrench Cardio is for homo's. do you even lift bro?, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:17, Reply)

barbecue

( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:22, Reply)

EPIC FAIL
Sweet Curry you nonce. Now go and think about what you've just done!
( SteveFrench Cardio is for homo's. do you even lift bro?, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:26, Reply)

Made all the worse by the way I have pissed off people from here I would consider friends
Who won't even speak to me now :'(
( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:09, Reply)

Don't delete your posts then.
Just be yourself. We don't care who you are. You just are.
( The Disappointed Caravanner of the year, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:25, Reply)

I haven't deleted anything :S

( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:26, Reply)

Lampito won't even say hello to me any more
I hate what I've become
( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:27, Reply)

This is bollocks

(Alfonso Bongo BELL AIRE HORSE EXTRAORDINAIRE, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 13:08, Reply)

Sounds trite
But I've been there.

I've let it loose on b3ta and been enpowered by the responses.

It's yours, but try it.
( The Disappointed Caravanner of the year, Thu 16 Dec 2010, 23:47, Reply)

Yes.
Think this was a reply to a now deleted post.

Add a post above to fit my heartfelt meaningful response.
( The Disappointed Caravanner of the year, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:14, Reply)

I'm tired of all the rejection, nobody wants the maxi

( Maximinimus you stick around I'll make it worth your while, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:26, Reply)

The Disappointed
Will never turn anyone away.

Until bedtime - and now it's bedtime.
( The Disappointed Caravanner of the year, Fri 17 Dec 2010, 0:32, Reply)