SHITCLOWN
Shitclown. Shitclown.

Wake. Shock. Mirror. Is that me. That is me. Shitclown. Shitclown. Grab bottle. Drink. Drink gulp swallow gulp gasp surging bliss relief. Pain. Pain below. Deep sharp in guts. Again. This again. Run. Run to toilet. Sit and shit. Diarrhoea everywhere. Splashing the walls. Bare feet wet. Shit, Shitclown, SHIT! All you can do now. Shitclown. Shitclown.

You can't even cry anymore. Shitclown.

Big top. Empty. Dark. A cavernous space. Stand, Shitclown, and remember. Remember the laughter. Remember the laughter and applause that came after. Now? Now? NOW?! NOW?

Nothing now. Nothing. Drink. Shit. Drink. Shit. Shitclown. Drink. Shit.

Die. PLEASE soon. PLEASE soon. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE soon. Oh please.

But and suddenly but but there... here... *she* is. Sparkling spangles glitter, silver tiara princess, alabaster unicorn. Above you she rides, Shitclown. So high above. Does she see you?

No. Once, she glanced at you, then looked away. It was enough. Enough to make you love.

Now? Nothing now.

Back to the van. Smell of shit. But plenty bottles. So drink. Drink Shitclown drink.

Cos you are shit, Shitclown. Shit. And soon you will be dead.

SHITCLOWN. SHITCLOWN.
(Dr Skagra glorious glargzhem, Fri 13 Jun 2014, 19:52, 12 replies)

ok

( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 13 Jun 2014, 21:43, closed)

hopefully this is the type of breakdown that culminates in suicide

( drimble he'd been white, he'd been black, Fri 13 Jun 2014, 21:49, closed)

^this^
First ever Dr Skagra post that I bothered to read all the way through, A+++, would read again if he's resuscitated before brain death
(Plague Hedgehog 'posting crap', Fri 13 Jun 2014, 23:59, closed)

Ooh thanks Sweetie
but it's SHE, as I am a girl!

XXXXXXXXXXX
(Dr Skagra glorious glargzhem, Sat 14 Jun 2014, 9:02, closed)

Praise be
* rapturous applause *
( d.r._and_quinch when will you be famous?, Sat 14 Jun 2014, 7:36, closed)

Die. PLEASE soon. PLEASE soon. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE soon. Oh please.

( rachelswipe with a fork, Sat 14 Jun 2014, 8:34, closed)

this is a massive improvement
granted I only read the first two lines
( Dr. Shambolic je suis charlie, Sat 14 Jun 2014, 8:52, closed)

Been tehre
done that

TIME LORD!

(Cue Beefy...)
(Dr Skagra glorious glargzhem, Sat 14 Jun 2014, 9:03, closed)

next week put some pooplops in it for Swipey and your larfing.

( d.r._and_quinch when will you be famous?, Sat 14 Jun 2014, 9:34, closed)

You are the drunk bakers out of Viz.
AICMFP.
( stuj (^(^;;^)^) GO TEAM SPIDERS!(^(^;;^)^), Sat 14 Jun 2014, 15:11, closed)

?
I dont understand a word of that Sweetie!

Perhaps YOU are a drunk baker?!

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
(Dr Skagra glorious glargzhem, Sat 14 Jun 2014, 18:36, closed)

this will win

( brb Learn Ukrainian and prepare for a referendum, Sun 15 Jun 2014, 23:50, closed)