I find that it's important to chill the fuck out
I had a bit of a freak out a month or so ago. Was worrying way too much about stuff. It's all good now though, things are better than they were and I'm happier. I've also got over the not sleeping without having had a smoke thing as well, which is excellent. It's been years.
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:13, 3 replies, latest was 14 years ago)

Things always seem much worse at the time, seems to be.

( Kroney, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:14, Reply)

my reaction was disproportionate though
even taking that into account. It was a series of big life changes though, all happening suddenly and at the same time. All good though.
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:17, Reply)

Paranoia?
Very good to get away from the dependency on weed to sleep. Ou of interest does you fiancé smoke as much as you?
( Naked Ape call me Caitlyn, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:16, Reply)

There was definitely an element of it
but I've literally never had it before in all the years of smoking.

I am a worrier generally, as are my brothers and my dad, but I think things all combined to fuck me up at the time. I was a bit ill, mrs had an operation, decision to make on the new job etc. All got on top of me, which freaked me out.

She does smoke, but not during the week really. Which I don't either now, and happily I can take it or leave it at the weekend much easier as well. It's nice to know that I'm definitely in control.
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:19, Reply)

Good for you, I definitely became pretty dependent at uni
And I'm glad I stopped as I did get a bit paranoid. Hope the mrs is ok!
( Naked Ape call me Caitlyn, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:21, Reply)

I've never felt dependent, up until recently
and I sorted it out quickly enough that I've reassured myself.

Frankly, the mrs has a bulletproof psyche, she's a lot better at dealing with stuff than me.
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:23, Reply)

Why would you want to sleep without first having a smoke?
Lying in bed stoned with music playing is lovely.
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:19, Reply)

It is
but I've been a poor sleeper for years and years, and found that smoking was pretty much the only thing that helped. It became time to make sure that I could happily sleep without it.
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:21, Reply)

Ah yes, I was much the same
I used to lie awake for hours if I hadn't had a smoke, but since going through the months of sleeplessness of having a baby a few years back, I developed the ability to fall asleep instantly as soon as I lie down. I guess this cure won't ever be available to you though...
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:31, Reply)

I intend for that cure to never be available to me

( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Wed 17 Aug 2011, 9:32, Reply)