No, I'm still here
but everything's gone quiet.

What real-life stuff have you been doing? Enquiring minds need to know.
( b3th Not shit. Not mod., Tue 18 Oct 2011, 22:55, 2 replies, latest was 14 years ago)

also, b3th

( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Tue 18 Oct 2011, 22:55, Reply)

Talking to a mate on the phone
generally trying to get my shit together and decide what to do with myself next.
( CQ Knows the truth, all of it., Tue 18 Oct 2011, 22:56, Reply)

so what you gonna do?

( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Tue 18 Oct 2011, 22:59, Reply)

Ghostbusters!


No, wait, that's not right....
( b3th Not shit. Not mod., Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:00, Reply)

Not sure.
might learn something, might take self defence classes, might do something else entirely but it's definitely Time For Something New
( CQ Knows the truth, all of it., Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:01, Reply)

ARCHERY!
what other things could you learn?
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:02, Reply)

Archery would be pretty cool actually, but I'm more drawn to fencing
Other possibilities include a language (probably german) or something arty, drawing or sculpture depending is I want to play to a strength or improve a weakness.
( CQ Knows the truth, all of it., Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:07, Reply)

do both!
so what stuff is the stuff you tend to be good at and what bits the weakness?
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:07, Reply)

Only so much time, only so much money.
I suspect sculpture would come easily as I work well with my hands and spent a lot of my childhood making plasticine models, I cannot draw to save my life, I think this may be part of the dyslexia I just cannot make a pen or pencil do what I want it to.
( CQ Knows the truth, all of it., Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:10, Reply)

this makes sense
people with dyslexia tend to work better with 3 dimensional things, so tend to be better at stuff like architecture or things using 3D graphics
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:11, Reply)

'Zactly!
But I would dearly love to be able to paint portraits, so it might be worth seeing if I could be any better, or it could be a wast of time.
( CQ Knows the truth, all of it., Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:13, Reply)

well you won't get worse
so it's always worth trying
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:14, Reply)

I know
I just hate the feeling of trying something and not being able to do it. I was learning the ukulele and getting OK at it but I just could not play in time with other people which was a big part of the classes, on my own fine, trying to keep up with other people just would not happen, first wrong note and I froze, had to give up the class in the end as it was making me miserable and have barely touched the thing since.

I fear drawing might be another thing I'm just unable to do and I'm still a bit sensitive about that part of my dyslexia.
( CQ Knows the truth, all of it., Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:18, Reply)

oh I'm always terrible at things I try
I am a rubbish flautist at orchestra, I was awful and clumsy and slow at Tae Kwando, I'm not all that great at textiles (and everyone else was producing lovely things while I made pictures of mars or weird things to do with machine viruses), and I am clearly the worst archer of all us noobs
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:22, Reply)

I don't mind being bad when I can learn
and I think you do yourself a disservice, the textiles stuff I've seen that you've done is not bad, it's just different and all the better for it.


I just feel there are certain thing I am just not able to do and I hate coming up against those because they feel so immutable and it sets me back. Never mind, plenty of stuff I can do.
( CQ Knows the truth, all of it., Tue 18 Oct 2011, 23:27, Reply)