I'm getting the Fear and various feelings of anxiety
-Trying to work out if I want a fag
-Trying to get a backbone
-Trying to work out if I can get away with sending a "Oh hai how are you? Sorry sorry, hope we can be friends, come within 2 metres of me so I can touch you" text
-Wishing I were intelligent, so that I'd actually have worked when it mattered.

Oh, and there's a gig by the same band 3 years to the day that I went to last time, having lost my virginity to a guy I loved, and in a way still do. And am trying to work out if I should ask him to go with me again.

Of course, I'm not unhappier than you, but hope these lovely people can make you feel better.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:19, 2 replies, latest was 16 years ago)

Why are you going to measure where he comes?
And how can you stretch two meters?
(Bazongaloid, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:27, Reply)

Hmm? Measure? Coming?
Yeah, I think once he gets within two metres I can legitimately pounce. Any further away and I'd ahve to run after him, and I'd probably knock myself out.

Oh I get you! Sorry, not coming COMING within two metres, but getting his body within 2 metres of mine.

Fuck.
Hole.
Digging.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:29, Reply)

You're digging a fuckhole?
I thought most people came with them as a default?
( fuck shit up the best you never had, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:44, Reply)

nah
I'm just enlarging it so the denizens of the internet can all fit in.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:53, Reply)

Better dig some more
There's bound to be people who refuse to share with others and will want their own space in the fuckhole.
(Ghost Atreides enjoying incontestable health benefits on, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:57, Reply)

Ask the guy.
But first, think about how you'll feel if he says no and decide whether that feels better or worse than never knowing.
Stuff like this is always stupidly difficult, I know.

And these lovely people have indeed made me feel better.
They're ace (but don't tell any of them - egotistical little fuckers that they are).
( thealternativefact, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:29, Reply)

we all know that you love us clenders
and there's not a thing you can do about it
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:31, Reply)

I am ruined.

( thealternativefact, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:33, Reply)

Bitch!
*kicks in the shins*
(Bazongaloid, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:32, Reply)

Well, it's not simple. It never is, is it?
I might be going to this gig with his ex-girfriend, who I love very much.
We're seeing each other casusually. Well, seeing isn't the right word. Whenever he can be arsed he'll come and see me and fuck me. When he doesn't want to fuck me he doesn't speak to me. His reason for coming up to the gig in Manc (other end of the country from where he's at uni) was to fuck me. I dunno, maybe I can just be like, hey it's just like old times!
And I met him through this band too.

But I dunno.

That's good to hear :) It's great you can count on internet love and friendship; being told you're worthwhile is brilliant. Keep your chin up.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:32, Reply)

Ah right.
Yes, the whole 'just sex' thing has to work on both sides; it's often fraught with problems.
( thealternativefact, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:38, Reply)

It's a foolish idea
where one party (and lets face it, it's the man 99% of the time) gets to have sex whenever he feels like it without actually needing to bother with the whole caring about someone else part.

It's a very bad situation and if he's not going to stop it, you have to. For your own sake.

/serious answer
(Bazongaloid, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:44, Reply)

Fuckbuddies bad idea
either the sex gets shit or the buddies part gets shit.
( fuck shit up the best you never had, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:45, Reply)

I have a higher sex drive than him.
And I'm the one pushing to be friends. He'd just rather I was a vagina and didn't talk, than actually see me as a human being.

I wonder why I keep in contact with him. Spose I just am weak-willed, and he's been part of my life for so long.

But thanks for the serious answer. In return, I will say, you are right, not only for the reasons listed but that I'm sure I could find someone better in bed.

(Sorry, darling)
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 14:50, Reply)

*Worries*

( whenanimalsattackhumans clad in global hypercolour, Wed 3 Jun 2009, 15:03, Reply)