I've had an AGHHH FUCK day.
1) I get to kings cross and only half the busses are working and I didn't know my one wasn't so I was standing there for 30 minutes until I realised. By then I was so late, I jump for a cab....

2) A cabby tells me to fuck off and drives off because I asked for a £5 journey for £5. I simply said "Can you do XYZ for a fiver" he tells me to fuck off and drives off to the next customer.* The only word I said was "Can you take me to [address] for a fiver?" and the only words he said was "Fuck off".

3) The next cabby on the rank calls me a "a bit fucking cheeky" for jumping the queue because he didn't see me queue because I had already queued and the previous driver ran off. The journey I asked to come up to a fiver came to £4.80 and I gave him a fiver.

4) I get an email from someone important in regards to me "OMG I JUST WROTE A 'IF I END UP DEAD' THING" thing telling me I have nothing to worry about and that I'm a victim and pathetic small fry, but I'm still worried 'cus it could make people shout at me. This sets off a panic attack, my first one, I now know the difference between one of those an an anxiety attack. Thankfully I could feel it building up and work let me home a bit early. I now have to work all weekend to make up a deadline 'cus my mouth ran off with me with all that "i'll get it done this weekend".

4) I miss a train going from Kings Cross to Finsbury park by 1 minute so I have to wait 20 minutes for the next one; not a big deal, but it's just in that distance that makes it worth waiting for rather than taking the underground with all the walking, but it was delayed by 10 minutes on top of that. This always does my tits in. If it's 0-15 minutes, I'll wait. If it's more I'll take the underground. This was just on the border.

5) I get to finsbury park and I have my headphones on, so I don't hear any announcements, and I notice that the trains are only going half my journey. Turns out, the powerlines have fallen or some shit, there is a replacement bus journey though but I think "fuck that shit, I'll use the underground to go oakwood and get a bus from there".

6) I make it to oakwood and I'm like "How much to Enfield chase?" and he goes "£7" an I go "Don't worry, I'll take the bus", and he laughs and says "alright mate". I hang around for 20 minutes and remember the busses are fucked, so I nip into the chinese and ask them what minimum was for delivery and if I could pay a few quid to jump in the car with him. I offered to pay a couple of quid extra. They said it's alright but I'd have to wait 40 minutes and I CBA with hanging around.

7) I've took one less dose of tablets today because I have the exact amount to last me 'till monday morning and I always like being at least one dose spare for emergancies that ALWAYS happens. This might have explained the panic attack.

However, i've just taken my normal evening friday dose (which is heavier 'cus I have some once-a-week ones) and I can feel my eyes start to do that really nice thing eyes do on opiets (it's like the opersite of tears, can't explain it, its a little bit like if you've been swimming in a pool, but not unpleasent). And I have SUPPRISE DIAZIPAM that Ma' hid away for me.

And I have ordered the identical thing I had last night for supper because it was so good; deep fried corgette battons with tar tar sauce, breaded veal escolope and spegetti napoli.

* he did this because he's been waiting 20 minutes on the rank and only gets a fiver job.
( G/PP 💩💩💩💩💩&#128, Fri 22 Jun 2012, 19:37, 3 replies, latest was 13 years ago)

:(

( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Fri 22 Jun 2012, 19:42, Reply)

I'm watching a program about
fatty foods and things. It's making me want a fry up or a pizza or something. I'm not even hungry.
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Fri 22 Jun 2012, 19:43, Reply)

It's hollyoaks time for me, not had a chance to see it this week yet.

( G/PP 💩💩💩💩💩&#128, Fri 22 Jun 2012, 19:50, Reply)

Tl; dc.

( Fucking hell Jeff I am not a robot, Fri 22 Jun 2012, 19:56, Reply)

I'm not sure how you could possibly think that I would think anything otherwise.

( G/PP 💩💩💩💩💩&#128, Fri 22 Jun 2012, 19:57, Reply)

You have the dullest life I have ever encountered. Please take a fatal overdose of the drugs you are clearly addicted to.

( Fucking hell Jeff I am not a robot, Fri 22 Jun 2012, 20:21, Reply)

succinct as ever

( Naked Ape call me Caitlyn, Fri 22 Jun 2012, 20:34, Reply)