I've not posted here before, so go gentle.
But looking at the rules, it seems about the right place. I wanted to respond to some people from QOTW, but the question is now closed.
Firstly i wanted to say thank you for the generousity of the replies; it really lifted my spirits. There are some very kind people out there in B3ta.
I hope you guys see this message, I can't Gaz you all. You will know who you are if you do.
I am aware i came across as melodramatic, if not slightly derranged. Certainly selfish.
You told me the truth. You told me to apply logic. You told me to forgive myself, because i wasn't guilty. That all makes sense. It's The Truth.
But I bugged out of work early today, and watched the sunset. I just sat, and watched it.
What I witnessed was a ball of superhot gas disappear over the horizon of a revolving planet. Light was refracted and reflected due to cloud conditions. Then the stars gradually came out and i looked into an infinite Universe. That's truth, that's logic.
But what did I actually see?
I saw magic. I saw beauty.
I think what i'm trying to say is that to apply logic and truth, sometimes it can remove the soul. Or in other words, my guilt and self loathing are so much a part of me that to be cured would be to die. I hope this makes some kind of sense. I'm not sure it does.
( TheSundaeLunch I'm a fucking shrub, alright?, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 0:40, 12 replies, latest was 16 years ago)

Well
If it helped then it's a good thing, even if it doesn't make sense. I'm sure everyone will let you be melodramatic, but just not all the time. Logic and truth are great, but sometimes you just need that little bit of something else to make it all gel. :)
( Jimbuktu See? Right here, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 7:18, Reply)

I wish I was this deep
then all the chicks would dig me.
(Bazongaloid, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 7:30, Reply)

The only deep things people really dig are graves.

Edit: Nice sig!
( Jimbuktu See? Right here, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 7:52, Reply)

Most of us are gentle
and the ones that aren't I think are secretly softies or /talkers that have invaded our harmonious space.
( Peej, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 8:52, Reply)

fuck off

(Bazongaloid, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 9:04, Reply)

ym
shirter
Don't tell the wife
etc
( The Light in Chains don't touch the Pope's boner, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 9:14, Reply)

Has someone found the mushroom stash?
Good job happy person.
(Tugnut Ex of this parish, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 9:14, Reply)

Hang on, female, emotional issues, guilt and self loathing....
Where the fuck is Chompy?
(wellgroomedwookiee is a filthy-minded hobgoblin, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 9:30, Reply)

I think he just exploded.

( Devil_In_Tights the *real* DiT!, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 9:50, Reply)

fucking hell, i turn up 12 days late.

(PsychoChomp, Wed 24 Mar 2010, 20:12, Reply)

I have now just read her /qotw, it was pretty depressing.
So all of you should be nice
(PsychoChomp, Wed 24 Mar 2010, 20:43, Reply)

MTFU
/ac
( Devil_In_Tights the *real* DiT!, Fri 12 Mar 2010, 9:47, Reply)