hmm, odd.
it's not working for me.
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:28, archived)

What do you want to desire?
But in this case, you're infact desiring desire itself....
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:30, archived)

I don't know,
it just seems to be something missing.
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:31, archived)

Something may feel missing, but if you don't know what it is,
it's more likely that something that's already there is wrong.
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:33, archived)

I mean,
desire, it's something everybody else seems to have, and I don't. The problem, as far as I can identify it, is that there's very little in my life at all, other than a basic level of comfort. It seems like desire is what makes other people get more stuff into their lives. Or maybe it isn't. Maybe that's just a red herring.
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:37, archived)

Then you have no desire then,
you have everything you want?
You seem to be very lucky if that is what you mean.
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:39, archived)

I feel like I may as well fade into space and time.

( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:41, archived)

Oh come on now, i'm being helpful for once.
Don't be a cunt.
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:42, archived)

I appreciate it, I really do.
But I'm afraid to say, that telling me I ought to be happy isn't making me so.
I have nothing to live for, no passion, no drive. All my life I've only followed the path of least resistance, and now, I'm just stagnating in a puddle, like so much leaked hydraulic fluid.
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:44, archived)

I'm not telling you to be happy.
I'm saying that's what I want, everyone's different and yeah most people do want 'happiness' but not the way I do(it's hard to explain)
I'm not telling you to do anything, this is something only you can work out for yourself, you just need to find something worth living(or even dying) for.
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:48, archived)

Yeah, that's the gist of it.
There's a strong psychological link between happiness and goal fulfilment, such that to want happiness for its own sake is almost a tautology. What does it stand on? It's like saying you want what you want. It's like ordinarily, there's some kind of pre-programmed want or goal in there.
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:51, archived)

My happiness is to continue what i'm doing already.
Doing fuck all with my mates :)
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:55, archived)

until you have control over your own emotions you will look for fixes, be it things, doing stuff, or people
happiness can not be found with desire, only in owning your own happy
( mongychops, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:31, archived)

so all these other people are really no happier than I am?
it makes sense, but... I'm afraid I will disappear. What am I?
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:33, archived)

this is like the hardest question on going for gold
evah
( Derek Monte subthread killer: qu'est-ce que c'est, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:34, archived)

time passes to you and you take control of the game in the three zone

( Gilgamesh gazed in wonder as Frampton came alive, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:37, archived)

You are what you make yourself to be.
No one but you will fully understand yourself, and probably not even that.
I feel the most important thing in life is being happy and you should do your best to achieve what makes you that*
*exceptions apply
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:36, archived)

I don't know what to make myself be.

( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:39, archived)

Maybe do some soul searching then?
Or maybe it's just that, you are what you want to be.
For me, all I want is to be happy, that's pretty vague and I don't know how exactly i'm going to achieve it all the time and i'm sure I won't.
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:41, archived)

But I'm not happy, so I can't be.
As goes the words of the song, "if you don't have a dream, then how you gonna have a dream come true?"
I feel like I ought to be more than I am, I guess. But I don't know what or how.
Accepting things as they are only feels like giving up.
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:48, archived)