Awake at night
What past events, trauma's or potential disaster keep you lying awake at night.

I can never seem to shift an incident with a ladder, 30ft of space and cold hard slabs.

or

my daughter choking on an oat biscuit, which thankfully i managed to remove.

there are more, but they usually come knocking at night, in bed

anyone else got a similar neurosis?
(Cancer Joy was short lived, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:15, 54 replies, latest was 16 years ago)

An Engram
That's what Scientologists call it.

*I suggest a course of Auditting :0)

*not really
( SpikeyPickle wishes he was mabazaritchie, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:28, Reply)

nice one
everything has a name it would seem!
(Cancer Joy was short lived, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:32, Reply)

You don't have a name.

( WormuIus, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:45, Reply)

nor does ym

( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:50, Reply)

I decided a long time ago that nothing like that would keep me awake at night and surprisingly enough it has worked
but the one thing that gets me when I'm in bed is reoccuring dreams/nightmares and although I'm not awake I'm fucking terrified.
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:35, Reply)

oh that makes me sound like a twat
sorry things keep you up at night, dude
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:45, Reply)

well
these 'engrams' don't keep me awake every night....just now and then, the miasma of averted disaster descend.

having a wank usually helps


although i could technically prescribe that for almost ANY ailment

including cancer
(Cancer Joy was short lived, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:54, Reply)

It even cures hangovers
...and period pains.
Two of the world's most difficult things to shift.
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:57, Reply)

yeah wanking....or booze
or wanking AND booze
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:57, Reply)

I sometimes reflect on retarded things that I did that day and beat my face against the pillow like a toddler.
That can keep me awake sometimes.
( WormuIus, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:45, Reply)

It's a wonder you get any sleep at all.

( girlinthehole, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:51, Reply)

I quite often do that.
You can tell when I'm doing it becasue I screw up my face and squeak.

I wish it helped.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:58, Reply)

If a dog looks at me a bit off then I'll take it really personally and write poetry
Sometimes I talk to my Pan's People poster...sometimes it talks aback to me
( Donkey Gums @mattcomedy, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:47, Reply)

I used to get Teh Fear my cat would be hit by a lorry.
I still worry about it, but I hope he doesn't.
I can hear him crying, it's OK :)

I had horrible nervous dreams the last few night, before the Ex came up. Some where my parents just didn't leave the house, one where he ended up in Ireland, and one where I was forced to have sex with another of my exes.

And sometimes I just start crying when I'm trying to sleep.

Peace and love, y'all.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 13:58, Reply)

How did your weekend with the ex go?
Full of sexeh tiem?
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:05, Reply)

:/
We didn't pull. Which was fuckin' weird.

He was very tired. Which was better than last time I saw him, when he was almost in tears over another girl. But we got on really well, and my friends seemed to like him. When we left the club, apparently a few of the girls were disappointed the "beautiful boy" had left. But it's not like I had him.

He told me off for introducing him as my ex.
Though K (guy-who-dumped-me-for-being-ugly) was there. Suitably intimidated next to 6' 4" of lean, beautiful, clever Ex.
Though someone said he looked really thick. I asked them what they meant; they didn't mean clever-thick, just people-thick.

So a bit of sexeh tiem. I'm a bit :/ about it all.

Sorry for epic ramble.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:09, Reply)

Doesn't sound too bad.
At least the beautiful boy was seen to arrive and leave with you.
Oh, and excellent on the intimidation front. I love it when things like that happen.
People thick? Like he wasn't very social, or something?

I love your sig, by the way. Agree very much.
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:16, Reply)

I guess not.
At least we're friends again.
Well, kind of. We arrived in a big group, though he did leave with me :) I do think he's gorgeous. Half-Orientals are sooooo nice, and you get the hairless gene!
Thing es, The Ex is horrifically non-intimidating. It's just that K's a little wimp.
Yeah, that, and he just doens't know how to communicate that well, is what I think she meant. I'm not sure.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=i62UF7uROGU
My friend did a cover of it yesterday. It was brilliant.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:23, Reply)

Hmm, I've never been there before.
Hairless gene... *puts on to-do list*
This K guy does sound like a pathetic little cunt. Sounds like intimidation, even by a non-intimidating person is just the thing for him.
Ah, I see. Tall, dark, handsome and quiet? Can we clone him?

Aha! This is very good! I love this sort of style.
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:35, Reply)

what a prick, some guy dumped you because he thought you were ugly?!
why did he go out with you then?!

ugh what a fucktard

you should stab him in the eye
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:27, Reply)

Oh, contemplated that.
Well, the actual wording was "You're not physically attractive".

Still a bit of a kick in the teef :(

And he was seriously PERFECT. And he seemed to really like me.
Until overnight (after having been laid SEVERAL times) he decides I'm a minger.

Hmph.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:31, Reply)

uuuuuuuggggggghhhhhhh
I don't even know you and this makes me angry.
Online.

what a prick!
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:32, Reply)

And he wonders why I have no self confidence!
Right, MingTFU :D
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:33, Reply)

don't let a dickhead like that ruin your self image
you deserve better, he deserves crabs
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:35, Reply)

Served on a large spike
To the bollocks.
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:36, Reply)

Hehe, thanks :)
He DOES look like Dexter Douglas.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:37, Reply)

crossed eyes and wonky fingers?

( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:38, Reply)

'he's got pretty blew eyes'
'one blew right, the other blew left'
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:39, Reply)

Nooo, just geeky.
It's quite apt.

(He's Freakazoid, the guy who gets sucked into the internet and becomes a superhero. That's where the whole Candlejack meme comes fr-
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:40, Reply)

AHAHAHAHAHA
One of my exs looks like the love child of this and this
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:41, Reply)

mine looks, quite literally, like Nas
here. Minus the mic and gangsta chain
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:50, Reply)

Not bad,
Not bad at all.
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:51, Reply)

I'd quite like a geeky boy
my friends think there is something wrong with me because I like the nerdy type
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:57, Reply)

there's nothing wrong with nerdy.
Most of the time they're the best kind. They can hold a decent conversation without grunting, and they won't look at you like a freak when you squee over the new Terminator or something.
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 15:01, Reply)

exactly!
*searches for nerdy bloke*

*doesn't find him*

*sads*
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 15:05, Reply)

I like Geeks too :)

( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 15:24, Reply)

Phwoar.

( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:52, Reply)

Exactly.
I have no idea what I was thinking.
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:52, Reply)

Oh and the one I usually mean when I mention 'the ex'
Looks like this only chubbier.
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 15:00, Reply)

ooooh
I don't know who that is but he's cute
( Lisette von Falcon, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 15:06, Reply)

Would.
(sorry)

Trying to find someone who looks like The Ex.

He's pretty distinctive.
And pretty.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 15:25, Reply)

Very little keeps me awake at night
for which I am rather thankful, having come a cropper with an unpleasant few months of insomnia a couple of years ago. Recurring nightmares are a shitter though, I get them from time to time.
(berk, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:03, Reply)

The fear of zombie apocalypses.
I'm not kidding. I have horrific, realistic zombie apocalypse dreams at least once a week, and it always takes me ages to go back to sleep afterwards. Especially when in my dreams, the zombies always win.
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:07, Reply)

The Zombies will always win in real life
all you can do is try and delay the inevitable and make death as quick and painless as possible.
(Bazongaloid, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:12, Reply)

They're not getting me.
I have a plan. And a backup plan.

/Paranoia
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:13, Reply)

Your plan had better end up with you shooting yourself in the head
anything else is just the long slow suffocation of your soul as you watch everyone you've ever known trying to eat you BRAAAAIIIINNNZZZZZZ!
(Bazongaloid, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:16, Reply)

That's more or less the backup plan.
I have faith in my first one.
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:18, Reply)

Google the zombie survival wiki
and read from it before going to bed. Before you know it you'll have a gun that fires chainsaws.
( The Light in Chains don't touch the Pope's boner, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:13, Reply)

'gun that fires chainsaws'
Fucking genius! Where can I purchase one of these wonders of modern technology?
(Applebite Uh! A cow!, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:17, Reply)

Hmmm...
Every time I have a shower, I have to make sure the lid is down on the toilet.
Otherwise I could step in it, and snap my ankle.
( Cawl, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:42, Reply)

Owww
I have to put the lid down when I have a shower because I dislike the sight of a toilet seat covered in condensation, it gives me the heeby-jeebies, the thought of sitting on a cold wet toilet seat...

Sounds crazy. Wibble.
( Colonel Dracula Two manky hookers and a racist dwarf, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 14:47, Reply)

Cant wake up
I suffer from a form of sleep paralysis whereby in my dreams, I am trying to wake up but I can't. I know im asleep and im basically trying and trying to open my eyes. Sometimes i even dream that i wake up but infact im still dreaming and then it happens all over again.

Its terrifying and often causes me to panic in my sleep before waking suddenly. I've looked into it more and essentially, when in sleep mode, the brain secretes a chemical that paralyses the body but my mind is still over-active and tries to wake me up causing a conflict.

Its scary shit
(Eggstrovert isnt patronising you...honest..., Mon 6 Jul 2009, 15:24, Reply)

Eep
I had that once. Just once, and it shit me up for days. Horrible.
Can't your GP do anything for you?
(berk, Mon 6 Jul 2009, 15:49, Reply)

apparently
I just need to stop drinking so much and get earlier nights. Its a lifestyle problem.

But I like to party, im not gonna let some sleep thing ruin my fun.!

Drink anyone?
(Eggstrovert isnt patronising you...honest..., Mon 6 Jul 2009, 16:47, Reply)