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So here's one.
Just be you. Not the persona you adopt to post on b3ta. Bare your soul.
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as I am in real life. Possibly a little more confident behind the anonymity of a computer screen, but that's about it.
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Although I'm a tiny bit more mean here, but I don't have so many easy targets irl.
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Earlier this year, just as a George Strait concert finished.
Fucking mayhem, but lots of ladies with low cut tops.
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I saw him in concert once, it was awesome, we got in a car accident on the way back, my friend pissed her pants, not so awesome
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We ended up on on overbridge near the San Antonio Spurs stadium, watching the crowds pass below us.
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unless that's a pet name for your tits.
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Fuck
I miss the sahara, that was great. Listening to the wind blow, mirages and that dry heat. Then you touch the river and green, life everywhere.
spend time outside, it's great.
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I'm pretty shy actually. Once I feel more confident I will talk quickly and loudly and inappropriately
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I've never really had a taste for it. It tastes like water gone slightly wrong.
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Possibly not with a stomach bug though.
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I'm making my fancy dress costume for Saturday and it's going well. I'm also trying to convince myself that I'm over my cold, and I think it's working.
How about you?
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Hope the cold goes. THere's been several nasty things going around.
I'm not too bad, got in from 4 hours of literature and 2 hours of chainsmoking at a coffee house about 45 mins ago. I started getting spots and zigzag lines over my vision and my pupils are massive, I'm a little worried I'm either trippin' balls or getting a nasty headache. But I've had some coke and a mini-Curly-Wurly so I should be ok.
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I'm going as a zombie cheerleader. I was going to go as one of the weeping angels from 'Blink' but I couldn't make the wings in time.
Coke and chocolate sounds like the way forward, if this damn thing takes me much longer I think I'm going to have to pop out for something similar...
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The Weeping Angel would have been excellent. For the T party my friend had I considered going as the TARDIS (as I'm so much bigger on the inside lolololololol) but I think my eventual costume was even better. Have a great time
I'm eating a mini-Chomp now. Just slowly licking it up and down before I slide it into my mouth and let it go gooey.
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but the wings were just way too much faff. Ah well, I'll add it to my list of possibilities for next year.
Does somebody have sweeties left over from trick or treaters?
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My crafts go as far as purling, little bit of sewing, sticking things to other things and making origami animals out of such thick paper I needed to sew it together to keep it together.
Trick or treat? In Camberwell? Gawd, I'm not stupid. No, they had them on sale, and I thought little ones would be better, just a little treat. No, it just means you eat more than you would usually. Gawd I'm a fatty.
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who had three kitkat chunkys for dinner the other day. I'm not judging! (the only reason I'm not stuffing my face full of treatsize stuff is that I very carefully didn't buy any for exactly the reason you give)
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I'm trying to work up the courage to go and cook stirfry.
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I'd just stay in bed and eat chocolate, to be honest...
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and my "I LOVE ANAL" badge is in my wallet. That gets me a few odd looks too.
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It did lead to explaining the 3 Nevers to my friend, in front of the poor boy I kind of like. He is the most awkward creature ever.
He learned all 151 original pokemon in the lectures this afternoon. I bow down to his nerdery. I failed even to learn the first 18 elements.
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"I wish to donate my kidneys, liver, heart, eyes and tight arse"
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No, I opted out of donating my corneas. I don't know why, but I want to keep my eyes intact if nothing else.
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More of a christian, and about the same amount of pretty dull.
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Due to Chablis and a comment I made in the thread below about colour coded books.
We're nearly at the eight anniversary of the day I had a breakdown.
I'm not going to get all Batshitmental on you, but on November 7th 2002 I found myself crying my eyes out on Leeds station, having been fucked over by 14 years in insurance.
I don't normally allow my b3ta persona to get emotive, but tonight, Matthew, I'm going to be a soppy bastard.
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it's quite hard to see a computer screen and type properly with watery eyes.
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thepiratebay.org/torrent/5713218/The_Flight_Of_The_Conchords_-_S01_-_Radio_Series_-_MP3_-_Slimoo
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If I started to tell you how much I've changed as a person I'd be here all night.
Yes - is the short answer. And so much more for the better.
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I've spent most of the past three years making myself whole again. Respect to you for pushing on.
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I look at who I was 5 years ago and I hardly even recognise that person. And yet I can't really describe how it is that I've changed.
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Back then I was massively depressed and the real me was hidden under layer after layer of neuroses and suppressed emotion. Now I'm just me.
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I was just going to sum it up as having Manned The Fuck Up. If you'd told me when I was 21 what I'd be like now I'm 25 I would have laughed in your face and then cried, listened to The Smiths, and thought about cutting myself
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I decided I didn't need them any more about two years ago, and I really didn't. And I had a a few months of counselling at uni, but only because I got caught going a bit lolmental. *shrugs* I'm not sure it helped a great deal, but it was nice to have a damn good moan and not be judged or feel that I was boring the other person.
How about you?
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Period of self-harm three years ago and close to breakdown, went to the doc and demanded finality. Twenty sessions of psychodynamic therapy, two subsequent years of introversion, blogging, walking and self development, learned some counselling skills myself which helps with the self-examination. No meds for four years and thriving on life in general, especially now I've kicked weed and alcohol (mostly) on the head. I have occasional depressive bouts that last a day or so but nothing I can't handle. I consider myself very lucky indeed - I think if I'd carried on the way I was going I'd be dead by now.
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About work induced stress being somehow an artifical form of depression.
But having read this, I don't.
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and passively compounded it by not knowing how to deal with the associated emotions - anger, mostly - and suppressing them to the point of not feeling them for a decade. Ten year's worth of pent-up anger will fuck anyone up.
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Is to go outside for a smoke. I think that's called abstraction. And I'm making myself finish my answer before I go out.
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that sounds considerably more serious than me, I just got citalopram for 2 years and about 10 sessions of whining. I think my problems stemmed mainly from having an utterly shit childhood, and that I was still being all teen-angsty and allowing it to fuck me over. One of my major things was just letting stuff go, and it's made me a very chilled out person now (mostly). Just, life's too short to go around being depressed, you know?
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It's a skill I've only recently learned, and I've been right on the edge of letting the most important thing in my past go for a few days now.
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Big news today, feeling a little overloaded. There's time. Coincidentally I've felt very emotional quite a few times today so I know I'm loaded, but I'm on it. It'll come soon, I'll just sit down with this and let it all out.
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You're amazing, and you've been a great help to it seems many people here. Glad the flat was good, too.
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but that song always makes me want to cry, and I very very rarely cry. I presume the good news is the flat?
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Not insurmountable, but it's filled my plate for now. Although I've just listened to that and had a little cry for now.
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I know it's a big deal, both in a scary way and a great way. Just concentrate on the latter, everything will sort itself out :)
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Was to look around me and realise that I wasn't alone.
Here are Berk and Noel talking about supressed emotions. That's three of us for a start.
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It's always there. You might wish to have it diagnosed, and there are degrees of depression.
Whichever way you play it, mental trauma is real and it lives with you like a squawking parrot on your shoulder.
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Thereby negating the point of my thread.
I ought to be a smartarse. The Disappointed is a smartarse.
But no - Simon is far smaller than The Disappointed. I'm fucked up, whether I like it or not.
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sums me up quite well think.
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that's me. I'm feeling much better now though. just gotta keep working on it.
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I'm very different to The Disappointed in real life, I think.
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I haven't got any badges on my profile,which I'll have to change next week when I become 42.
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And strength to you.
We've spoken before and there is always a way.
I did some volunteer work while I was getting myself together again and it's the most enervating thing you can do.
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so I reckon you're not still there crying, right?
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insurance is bad, worked at Axa for a while.dont know how you did 14years
Fuck insurance, fuck them all
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I feel a bit off and there's a dull throb in my sinuses and it's slightly less easy to swallow.
Either that or drinking 2 bottles of wine and staying up till 2am last night was a bad idea.
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I'm frighteningly dull and I suspect I should quit booze for a while.
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lots of self-sabotaging and destructive behaviour. Past time to get a grip, I suspect.
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Oh my god you're all fabulous! Chompy have you lost weight? Noel looking fine! Can I get anyone a cup of tea? Lovelovelove
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How is life in the Beverly Hills of North London?
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Just roped in some lovely people to help me build my new bed
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Who'd have thought it eh? Actually don't answer that
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and make stupid jokes in real life, so not that much different. The handy thing here is a delete key before I press send.
In real life I swear more but say rude things less. Especially at work.
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Wouldn't either mate. I might be boring, but I'm not a massive cunt.
How is the cider going down this evening?
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But once I know people I get very huggy and talkative. And perky. And filthy minded. The more comfortable I am with someone, the more filth comes out of my mouth.
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the two maths ones I didn't have any problem with, and just worked carefully through them and then psychology was yesterday. Psych was allright but I really wasn't feeling very well, I'm hoping it doesn't reflect in my marks. All in all, feeling allright about them.
And I've got a whole week to prepare for chemistry, so it's alllll good.
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You'll be able to look forward to your European adventure once the exams are out of the way!
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I'll be amazed if you manage 11 sleeps! You'll be too excited.
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If I want to sleep, I just lie down and I'm out within about half an hour.
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The sort of thing you'd do if you'd fucked your sister and couldn't face the reality of being a convicted nonce every day of your life.
I'm the fucking same all day long, worse luck for everyone else.
I am posher around my parents, I am told.
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about how sport was shit and something to do with 'Bong-bongo Land' within two minutes of waking up this morning.
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I also get posher around my paretns.
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Or perhaps you should read what you wrote only moments ago?
Nobody is asking you to read or to participate.
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so if someone chooses to take what I said personally, then so be it
I haven't read the entire thread so I don't know what anyone has been "opening up" about
but if they're going to put their personal business here then they should be prepared to be judged.
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Plus he can't read this because of the ignore.
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Partly because you didn't judge me, even when invited to.
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nobody's talkin' 'bout nuthin 'cept you and me, Kris-kris.
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*feels young again*
How's it going?
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you give him a fucking pasting too.
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I better not be getting a reputation for internet hardwoman or something
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*cowers*
PLEASE, NOT THE FACE! I'M TOO PRETTY TO DIE!
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I have no fucking soul.
Bugger. Bugger. Bugger.
I was going to be all cool and cruel. Bloody PJM made me be nice.
And I realised I wasn't replying to Psychochomp. ;)
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I'm actually nice in RL.
Sickeningly nice.
So nice I'd want to slap me.
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How're you these days? It's been a while since I've seen you about.
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I'm fine, ta. Bit rushed off my feet with work - currently have three jobs, far too many students and too much RL.
You?
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I'm waiting for some work to start in a couple of weeks time, so trying to kill time without spending money, which is a fine balancing act.
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I'm trying to run life with an almost full time job and no pay until the end of November - being a sessional really sucks - haven't been paid since July :(
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I'm looking forward to getting paid once I get this job. I need to try and not just go back to buying loads of crap.
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With a steel company nearby. 2 months to start with, possibility of full time after that. Basically involves me going in and telling them how to do things better.
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And I bet it'll be lots and lots of money too.
I'm impressed and quite envious! Hope it goes full time for you.
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Means I could journey to bashes in the future. Hopefully the 2 months will go well; lots of hard work for a while, and it should be fine.
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EDIT
PJM is talking about taking photos of his cock and doing a series of famous cocks in history.
I think it's time for me to switch off the internet now.
Night night!
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www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7KyNnLJgDg
Reminds me of the shit my dad used to play when I was a boy.
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Court-appointed visits in the 80s were shit.
Still, sometimes he played Zeppelin and that was brillo.
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A perfect fit with the overblown camp of the film itself. Ditto Highlander.
If I'm honest I just like the 'Freddie Mercury had a party with dwarves walking round with trays of cocaine strapped to their heads' story. I don't care if it's true or not.
(, Thu 4 Nov 2010, 23:01, Reply)
Apparently, these stories are true. That'll do for me!
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I was most fortunate in my musical schooling. Little Richard, Chuck Berry...all the surf bands, Hendrix, Jefferson Airplane...
My mother likes utter shit, if she liked someone, they were guaranteed bent every time. Joan pissing Baez, Simon and Gayfunkel: bollocks. She used to make musical decisions based on whether they looked like they'd washed or not. Buck's Fizz were OK (nice and clean), reggae legend Boris Gardner = shit because he was sweating on Top of the Pops.
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