If I were to be diagnosed with a terminal disease
I would like to work my way through a variety of MDs then spend my final days taking heroin. I may also follow Aldous Huxley's example of "LSD, 100 µg, intramuscular" to see me on my final journey.
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:43, 4 replies, latest was 14 years ago)

But imagine if you freaked out about dying, that would really suck

( Naked Ape call me Caitlyn, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:43, Reply)

Never had a bad trip
Also 100µg is not a spectacularly high dose.
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:44, Reply)

But you've never been teetering on the dark abyss of death before

( Naked Ape call me Caitlyn, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:45, Reply)

I've never encountered anything on LSD that wasn't uncontrollably funny either.

( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:47, Reply)

I was like that for years
but one night had a spectacularly bad time.
( Monty Boyce, My cheese game is strong, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:48, Reply)

Is that micrograms?
I favour 450-500 but then I am silly. The old red dragons were perfect I thought.
( Monty Boyce, My cheese game is strong, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:48, Reply)

It is.
Was usually purple oms, microdots or homemade tabs without pictures round here. The strongest I ever took was a Hoffer, purported to be similar to Dr Hoffman's experimental dose. That one was a bit scary, but then I lost all concept of, well anything really. Came down in a different city in the midst of an anti-BNP demo.
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:55, Reply)

Hahaha
The strongest - but also nastiest - that I had were either Pink Floyd Wall ones or 'Nukes' - rainbow coloured with a white CND sign on. They were both pretty alarming and felt rather 'dirty'.

I've had some amazingly professional looking blotters, the best of which had MC Escher's unravelling heads pic on a sheet of about 100. Really well made.
( Monty Boyce, My cheese game is strong, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:58, Reply)

I've also drank it neat out of the bottle once.
I do not endorse this reckless stupidity.
( Monty Boyce, My cheese game is strong, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:58, Reply)

Oh my
Looong weekend, I bet.
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:02, Reply)

I was coming down of a hit of DMT at the time.
We thought it would be 'funny'. For twelve or so hours it was. The trick is to drink yourself unconscious when it gets boring/irritating.
( Monty Boyce, My cheese game is strong, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:04, Reply)

Ah the old "this is great fun, we should definitely do more"

( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:09, Reply)

This is why more recently I prefer mushrooms
4-5 hours up, then slowly back down to a nice, if fuzzyish, world.
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:05, Reply)

A lovely Scots B3tan sent me some fucking tip-top mushrooms a while back.
I took them when my brother and I went to see Hawkwind and we were annihilated. I was amazed at how visual they were. A wonderful night.
( Monty Boyce, My cheese game is strong, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:10, Reply)

I haven't had any shrooms
since I took them for the first time with my old mates from school (got into them late) and ended up paranoid and then passed out in the garden and smacked my face on the floor.

Shame, because every other experience was one of pure unadulterated joy
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:15, Reply)

Can't win 'em all, old boy.

( Monty Boyce, My cheese game is strong, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:38, Reply)

trudat
I blame my mate Ian.
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 16:15, Reply)

And I was amazed
by how visual YOU were............
(Purpledoris I've got afeckin' job, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 16:49, Reply)

^this

( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:12, Reply)

Innit. Too risky for me.

( Monty Boyce, My cheese game is strong, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:45, Reply)

You'd have to be really at peace with dying
otherwise I imagine the experience would be utterly hellish.
( Kroney, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:46, Reply)

Quite.
Eff that, yo.
( Monty Boyce, My cheese game is strong, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:49, Reply)

For clarification
I include retirement/old age in with terminal disease.
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:43, Reply)

I imagine dying to be one hell of a ride.
Why add more to the experience.
( girlinthehole, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:46, Reply)

To be honest I am absolutely terrified of awareness at the point of death.
Despite all my big-man claims.
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:49, Reply)

I think it just depends how you go.

( girlinthehole, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:50, Reply)

Business Class

( Naked Ape call me Caitlyn, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:50, Reply)

*sneaks up*
*hits TUP over the back of the head with a lead pipe*

I hope this helps
( Naked Ape call me Caitlyn, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:50, Reply)

Thanks. Appreciate that, man.
*collapses*
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:56, Reply)

I read that as "big man-clams".
=/
( Kroney, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:51, Reply)

Phwoar!

( girlinthehole, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:53, Reply)

he gets that a lot

( rachelswipe with a fork, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:58, Reply)

Thank you, The Great Sarcasmo.

( Kroney, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:06, Reply)

i was going to do a strikethrough
and say "never". but you beat me to it.
( rachelswipe with a fork, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:08, Reply)

Bit of a Freudian slip there...
You know, when you say one thing but do your mother...
( Naked Ape call me Caitlyn, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:54, Reply)

I know *I* do!

( Kroney, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:57, Reply)

I'm on methadone at the moment, as a painkiller, 5mg twice a day. When I first got them, I had 10mg per evening, and the next day I had an audio hallucination.
Right, so I reckon they're pretty strong, but after looking around online, smack addicts have 100-130mg of the stuff. That's 13 times as strong as what I had. And that stuff is supposed to be really weak compaired to smack.

As someone who takes a lot of opiets (legit reasons), I can't imagine what Smack is like.
( G/PP 💩💩💩💩💩&#128, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 14:57, Reply)

Nature's cruel trick
These things are no fun if you actually *need* to take them
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:01, Reply)

Try taking 13 times the amount

( Naked Ape call me Caitlyn, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:03, Reply)

not recommended
some wankers from my school killed and coma'd themselves on methadone.
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:13, Reply)

Oh no, I deffo enjoy them, if anything, I enjoy them more, as they stop me from being in pain or anxious.
Almost like what it's like falling asleep on the couch infront of the telly; anyone can enjoy that. But those who go to the gym first (and therefore need to crash out more) would find it even more enjoyable.
( G/PP 💩💩💩💩💩&#128, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:03, Reply)

What I don't enjoy is needing them, but them themselves, yup, I enjoy them.
Enjoy isn't the right word, 'using' I think might be better.
( G/PP 💩💩💩💩💩&#128, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:04, Reply)

'need'

( Naked Ape call me Caitlyn, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:04, Reply)

Yah', that's right.
I seriously f'cking hate the fact that not a week goes buy where I don't see at least two doctors. My life is improved like a billion fold since I've started on the methadone; I'm no longer withdrawing 3 or 4 times a day, which I've been doing for the last 4 years.

Every weekend I've been anxous about running out early because I needed an extra dose in the middle of the night.... going to the out-of-hours doctors and ringing around all the phamacies to see who stocks them... begging and being distrort because it's a bank holiday weekend, I didn't realise, and the doctors is closed. Knowing I am an horrific wreck of a person, a shaddow of a person, with everything including time itself iratating me making me worst and worst until I can get that hit again. Franticly looking online to see if you can find somewhere that'll sale them, realising if you get cault, you can go to jail, or worst, that the tablets will be counterfit from india (or whatever) and be rat poison. Knowing that with every dose you take, it'll take more next time to do anything. That eventually you take so much that it has no effect at all, but you still take it, because you're in pain, because they've stopped working.

Morphine addiction is terrible. 4 years of this. 12 years of the same thing with Codine before that.

.... Today when I went to pick up my prescription, I even had left-over morphine tablets, as I felt I simply didn't need to take all my doses in the week. I haven't once felt anxious about taking them, I hardly think about them at all now. And when I do take the morphine, it is _soo_ much stronger.
( G/PP 💩💩💩💩💩&#128, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:13, Reply)

S'funny, it sounds a lot more romantic when William Burroughs writes about it.
You have my sympathy, for all the good it will do you...
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:16, Reply)

Do not tell your doctor that you enjoy them
He will never prescribe them again.
( tangledupinblue hairy badge with moving eyes, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:06, Reply)

See above, he knows I enjoy them, but I also need them.

( G/PP 💩💩💩💩💩&#128, Fri 19 Aug 2011, 15:14, Reply)